Therapy Thursday- Plumb

God has a huge part in all of this with M. I've barely spoken to Him outside of a few fits of tears, rage, fear and begging for protection over my sweet girl. I'm a little pissed, quite frankly, that this God I've given up so much for over the last 14 years has 'done this' to my baby. But in the same breath, I am eternally thankful and astounded that He ever deemed me fit to mother this extraordinary child. Simply put, it's been complicated between God and I lately.

I heard this song today for the first time. It was exactly what I needed to hear.

Need You Now- Plumb

Well everybody's got a story to tell 
And everybody's got a wound to be healed 

I want to believe there's beauty here 
Cause oh, I get so tired of holding on 
I can't let go, I can't move on 
I want to believe there's meaning here 

How many times have you heard me cry out 
"God please take this"? 
How many times have you given me strength to 
Just keep breathing? 
Oh I need you 
God, I need you now. 

Standing on a road I didn't plan 
Wondering how I got to where I am 
I'm trying to hear that still small voice 
I'm trying to hear above the noise 

Oh I walk, oh I walk through the shadows 
And I, I am so afraid 
Please stay, please stay right beside me 
With every single step I take 

How many times have you heard me cry out? 
And how many times have you given me strength? 

I need you now 
I need you now

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